i want to kick it like old school

something to look back on

k im gonna be emo and work on this paper =]

dont forget to paint your nails black!

im gonna paint it with sharpie

hahahaha

make sure u cut the fingers off your black gloves

hahahah of course! i almost forgot

and wear a tutu?

perfect gift

and the combat boots

i was thinking my vans that i wrote i hate my life and drew a checkerboard on the side

and i smell like hot tpoic

topic*

are u a cutter now?

8:37pm

dont tell!

its the only pain i feel

i use a rubber band to help me ease the pain..u should try

eH

LOLR

today i caught myself laughing so hard cause i found my XANGA..although it was just a 2 year span since i created it...but man its hilarious!

man going through past events sure does bring so much memories..

the laughter, the fights, the memorable lyrics to a certain song, depression... and some how we all got past it...i guess thats why its called the "past" for a reason. i guess this BLOG is just memories for my future and i wouldnt change it for the world.

i really dont know what else to say so..goodnight

suck it

all of a sudden i feel stressed out and i just want to blog about it.

my life never revolved around money until i realized that ive been living in customer service for the past 8 days.. and ive finally come to an end. im at the point where i dont want to try anymore. i dont want to see my life trying to make money just to make me happy. Although id love it but..the satisfaction wont feel the same.

i have a confession: ive been cheating my way out of biology since day one of the semester. ive made friends who knew the easy way out. but in the end, it was just too hard. all of a sudden im doing lab reports i know nothing about and i swear its starting to stress me out.

and now all i want to do is cry. or drop the class or cut myself.. (oh shit..lolrw)

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shit back to lab reports..lolr FUCKKKKK

get over yourself, cause i did...

ive decided that im ready for WINTER!...bring on the knee high boots, the fancy scarves, the cute beanies, the warm peacoat, the ROSE printed stockings/tights and the black gloves that comes in 2 for $1.50 at walmart..haha. im ready to step out side and feel that cold breeze against my face just to run back in doors to feel the warmth all over again.

oh summer, dont get me wrong...but you came at the wrong time..i swear i had the time of my life in Hawaii but its time for you to cool the fak down and get over it. the summer dresses just made me look pregnant, them off the shoulder shirts just looked like a duster, and leaving my fan on all night just felt like hot ass blowing at you while spending HELLA money on PG&E...so guess what SUMMER..im on to the next....you disgust me..sorry boo.

PS i got 40 pounds fatter and im starving right now...

i really dont know how anorexic hoes do it!

dayyyyyyyyyyyyyy seven bitches!

its been a week and ive survived it all...it was spring break and i did well..remember that "20 pounds in 20 days" bullshit?! WELLL

i lost SIX pounds in the last 6 days!!!!!!! 14 more to go!

people ask why im doing this...and i say "CAUSE I GAINED 20 POUNDS!" ..i really did -__- it makes me want to cry...but thats ok..with the pace im going..im doing good.. 14 pounds and 14 days to go...lets just hope for the best

til next time jotos!

ANOREXIC DAY #1

ok ok, im not really trying to be anorexic. im just kind of tired of gaining and gaining all this weight after 3 years of keeping it off and now all of a sudden i feel so unaccomplished, its almost summer and i could have sworn to myself that i was trying to lose weight 3 months ago for summer.. now that its almost here i had to put it off until now...

well heres the new start of my "lose 20 pounds in 20 days" challenge. its nothing anorexic about it. I SWEAR. i mean, i did lose 6 pounds in 7 days and it never involved me being for real for real anorexic..just the whole "exercise and eat right" kind of thing.

QUOTE OF THE DAY: "Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results"

its ok ill prove you wrong

NOTES (for my own purpose):

2 miles -31 minutes -__-

HELLO 2010..im ready for u

Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants..
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5. Make time to pray.
6. Play more games
7. Read more books than you did in 2009 .
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with His/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree...

Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything..
28. Spend time w/ people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change..
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come..
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

what ever makes your heart beat faster...go for it

Hello there, I'm the one who's waving at ya
and I have something I'd like to say
Hello there, if you could lean a little closer
you could hear the secret I gotta share
Get butterflies when you smile at me
as you walk on by me
as I'm sitting here
Hello there, can someone tell me what to do
because I'm lost with words when I'm with you


Maybe I like you just a little
Maybe I like you, a lot
Baby I'm standing in the middle
Do you notice, do you notice me


Boy, don't you dare stop your smiling
I promise you the rain will stop any day
Boy, if you're ever getting lost
you know my hand is not, too far away
from yours
from yours
do do do......


Hello there, if you would please give me a piece of your heart I promise to give you mine
Hello there, I'd guard it with my life
with safety pins and glue
and with masking tape and screws
and there's nothing you could do
because...


Maybe I like you just a little
Maybe I like you, a lot
Baby I'm standing in the middle
Do you notice, do you notice me

:
Boy, don't you dare stop your smiling
I promise you the rain will stop any day
Boy, if you're ever getting lost
you know my hand is not, too far away from
yours, you know the night has never been so clear
the milky way is swirling above us
now, we'll be dancing in the moonlight
counting stars at great heights
one by one
one by one
one by one
tonight...............

do do dooo.....

Hello there, my knees are skinned my shoes are lost
can't chase pavements if our roads never cross